It fascinates me to think that we are all just one parent or date on a calendar or circumstance or spark of light away from being born a completely different person than who we actually are.
I will never know what I could have been, where I could have lived or how I could have grown up. A tiny tweak in space and time could have completely altered my entire course of existence. Maybe I would exist but as a different me. Or maybe I would be half of who I am today but the other half would be completely different. Maybe I wouldn't exist at all. One tiny blip could have made me a blind person, a genius, a nomad, a boy. How does this all work? It boggles the mind.
Could a simple wink or word or gesture from a different man have given me a different father? Could a random glance or touch or smile from another woman have given me someone else to call my mother? Could a slight tilt of the world's axis have changed where I've always called home? Only my wildest dreams can imagine where life could have taken me. I could have ended up right where I did or somewhere far across the world. Maybe I could have even slid straight over into a parallel dimension.
Where do all of these possibilities rest? Each and every one of us could have made this planet that surrounds us a completely different place than the one we know this very minute based on the ebb and flow of possibility alone. Is our entire experience in this one life we have really so dependent on circumstance? If every action has an equal and opposite reaction, then the decisions we make every second of every day - and the millions of decisions every person who ever came before us made - brought us here to this very place we find ourselves in right now. Does fate or chance ever play a part in all of this or is life really just distilled from a series of flowing choices and personal decisions that impact ourselves and those around us?
If so, why is there a need to make it into something bigger than that?
Life is fragile to the core. Every single thing that we ever say or hear or react to - or, equally as importantly, don't - causes a mass ripple effect. Birth is just the starting line. Who knows how any of it will finish...
What is your experience?
I will never know what I could have been, where I could have lived or how I could have grown up. A tiny tweak in space and time could have completely altered my entire course of existence. Maybe I would exist but as a different me. Or maybe I would be half of who I am today but the other half would be completely different. Maybe I wouldn't exist at all. One tiny blip could have made me a blind person, a genius, a nomad, a boy. How does this all work? It boggles the mind.
Could a simple wink or word or gesture from a different man have given me a different father? Could a random glance or touch or smile from another woman have given me someone else to call my mother? Could a slight tilt of the world's axis have changed where I've always called home? Only my wildest dreams can imagine where life could have taken me. I could have ended up right where I did or somewhere far across the world. Maybe I could have even slid straight over into a parallel dimension.
Where do all of these possibilities rest? Each and every one of us could have made this planet that surrounds us a completely different place than the one we know this very minute based on the ebb and flow of possibility alone. Is our entire experience in this one life we have really so dependent on circumstance? If every action has an equal and opposite reaction, then the decisions we make every second of every day - and the millions of decisions every person who ever came before us made - brought us here to this very place we find ourselves in right now. Does fate or chance ever play a part in all of this or is life really just distilled from a series of flowing choices and personal decisions that impact ourselves and those around us?
If so, why is there a need to make it into something bigger than that?
Life is fragile to the core. Every single thing that we ever say or hear or react to - or, equally as importantly, don't - causes a mass ripple effect. Birth is just the starting line. Who knows how any of it will finish...
What is your experience?
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